TEAM EIGHT

For the Thrill.

2012-02-12T12:40:00.010-05:00

relax.

Most modern homes are shot in the daylight.

Why?

Open ceilings and cement walls.

Top to Bottom windows. Reflecting moonlight.

Why not show them at night?

Show the world how it feels to be vulnerable.

A piece glass separating you from NATURE.

Your actions plainly visible from the outside.

An exposé.

They might judge.

They know not of the (intangible) luxuries you can afford.

Fuck 'em.

(Belgium)

Unfamiliar reason.

The one that shouts impulsive thoughts.

Child.Like.

Whispers that fantasies aren't a lie.

When it tells you.

To take action..

Do it.

..see how it feels to still be alive.

Live Fire.

2012-02-03T01:48:00.000-05:00

I get stressed out at times, however, I am still alive and working harder.

HOW FAR DO I WANT TO GO?

I want to reach heights unimaginable. I want to touch the people in a way not only meant to heal, but to build upon and create something new. I have been moving forward, but there is always a way for me to improve and I am working on it. I want to go as far as winning peace, if peace is won, would you call that a success? Would it be a solution to the problems of the world? Or would it be a band-aid on a gaping wound, a wound very close to becoming infected. I am sorry, but such things must be taken into account when given the task of doing the research before making a choice. What is the last choice I want to make?

Check this out, technological advances have taken a wild turn. There are over forty countries with unmanned weaponised robots. There has also been a movement to make robots smart. Now, if you use this technology for the military, you have a new way to fight wars. What happens when war is over? The soldiers come home and the people begin to use that same technology for day to day activities. What if the robots were given the ability to reason before they made their way into homes? Do you think the world's history of ethics and morality will prevent swarms of robots from "occupying" and area, killing anyone who enters? How far do you think things will go before scientists are the only ones making decisions? Scientists are great with calculations, do you think they have already planned things out?

I need to watch who I let influence me. You may be a great guy, but we play by different rules, do not disrespect me and I will return the gratitude.

They want to know what God was thinking.

If you look far enough, you can see the beginning of the universe.

Swagger Dagger.

2012-01-30T11:20:00.000-05:00

Dulled down.
Staring contests with closets.
I'm not the victor.
I'm adjusting the sails.

I'll let you get back to sleep.

Warning.

2012-01-22T01:47:00.000-05:00

Yes, like the Notorious B.I.G.

I want that mood to linger in your thoughts.

I feel, like I have fallen.

I have been tested.

Hardened.

Time to put the skills to use.

No, not like a test.

More like, a display.

Not the flashy kind.

Peace.

For now.

Strange Living. "Going To Work"

2012-01-11T18:34:00.003-05:00

YO, we are alive.
Strange living isn't it, I watched a sparrow die in my palms yesterday.
I've never been so close to death.
If I keep apologizing for everything, how will I ever get better?
Should I be answering my own questions?
NO. Definately, not, the, case.
Everything is hardly as complicated when you are thinking with a group.
This is not a post to be analyzed.
This isn't me complaining.
I want to make this as clear as possible,
THIS post. Is for laughter.
For every amazing night, The gorgeous and benign.
How potent a single women can be in a crowd of men,
This is for you.
I've been waiting to feel this way towards YOU since I stopped feeling this last time.
Now what?
Now, how do we find our way back, to where we began, if all we've been doing is walking in circles.
Can you taste the words you want to give me on your tongue...
FUCK YOU.
FUCK FORGETTING.
FUCK WHOEVER CAN'T COPE WITH HOW DOPE WE'VE BECOME WHILE LIVING IN GREATNESS.

Here. This. Is for Entertainment. - Shoutout to The Team n Lucas River.

http://t.co/5kAF8wI

Lost in love with 8.
Sincerely Yours,
-WSpahk

Just A Reminder.

2012-01-02T14:00:00.000-05:00

While some choose greed, I choose to plant seeds.

-Guru

2012-01-02T02:18:00.000-05:00

Positive vibes bring positive change.

Change is inevitable.

Truth is not concrete.

Your story is the only one you can tell.

So many things I want to say.

I need to take my time.

This Is A Big World.

2011-12-19T01:39:00.000-05:00

Remember, there was a move made to secure internet censorship.
There was also a move made to suspend Habeas Corpus.
We may have a new POTUS in the building soon.
How much do I hear about this?
I don't know, how much DO you hear about it?

IS IT POSSIBLE TO CREATE ANOTHER YOU?

I have figured out the answer to that question.

I will leave you with this.

That answer told me a lot about myself.

Are we natures way of multitasking?

As it should have.

A star is a star.

I am the opposite of a star.

We are the physical manifestations of objects that shine, but not outside.

Thus, I have the exact same energy make up.

The energy we put out isn't made to be seen from space.

I must exert this energy where I want it to go.

But it can be seen between us.

Do stars see us?

Please follow @STASHOFTHOUGHTS
(That is a link.)

At The End Of The Movie...

2011-12-17T04:39:00.000-05:00

I hope I didn't startle you.

To tell you the truth, I am at first a brain.

Given the right circumstances my brain and an ocean are akin.

In fact, there are times where my physical is just that.

Matter flowing throughout the Universe with an immeasurable quantum of depth.

It is no wonder we create the world we are in.

At these times I am most alert but also most vulnerable.

However, I am learning to distinguish the times.

It is all a learning process after all.

Until you learn it all, then you just do.

And are no longer a brain.

But just remember, there is no half stepping.

I MOLD THE WORLD AROUND ME, THERE IS NO LIMIT TO WHAT I MAY CREATE.

If you are reading this you have decided to push your imagination to the limit.
Congratulations, now do something with it and challenge those with like minds.
It is the only way we can keep this world at balance with us.

Treat this like a good book or movie, come back and peep the subtle details we put into this so you can get the full benefit of the experience. We are not here to waste your time because like you, we know what an hour can do to the mind when put in the wrong setting.

... They do not get you.

YOU'RE GOOD. GET BETTER. STOP ASKING FOR THINGS.

2011-11-30T13:48:00.000-05:00

Yesterday a brief conversation took place. Two, actually. Both with people whom have a great influence on my life. The latter of the two was someone I am enamored by.

"..The still point of the turning world."

Introspective at 3AM.
The ceiling stared back puzzlingly.
Solitude.
The enjoyment of my own company and handcuffed to my own thoughts.
My version of Thoreau's Cabin retreat.
My succession into passion filled persistence.

Let them watch from a distance of course.
In remorse. Because, They Can't.

"They wanna get up in your head."

The High Road by Broken Bells

Every three months you should be completely changing what you listen to.
Evaluate the Lifestyle you need.
(Progress. Forward and Up. Like our Nation's Debt. Dig?)

+ Stamina

Stamen (fashion film) from Calum Macdiarmid on Vimeo.

Hesitation is for Pussies.

Fuck the OtherSide.

In the 11th Hour. Don't point the finger.
Fault or Favor.

"...Beneath our poised appearance we are completely out of control."

Avant-Garde.

Naturally.

'til the death of me.

Peace, Sun.

2011-11-26T03:05:00.001-05:00

fuck black friday

The Feast.

2011-11-24T04:03:00.003-05:00

HAPPY THANKSGIVING
I'm always late for some reason.
How is everyone, I hope all is well.
Life Update: Happy. Found peace of mind. Life is good.
No internet at the moment.
No phone till Monday.
No photographs.
Except for this one, strictly for humor.

Behold!! I haven't run in months.
So waking up at 5am for a jog is almost culture shock.
I draw way too often.
I write too often.
What really needs to happen is employment.
Cash Rule Everything Around Me.
Its horrible how deformed currency and greed have made us.
Once, I stole. Never got caught.
"A Jedi must have the utmost commitment, the most serious mind"
I just keep thinking she doesn't understand.
Ban heavy artillery and small firearms.
I want to know the way of the swordsman?
Teach the kings after me honor.
#NP Cage - Agent Orange

Eat Well.
8

Something Beautiful.

2011-11-23T16:58:00.001-05:00

I am beautiful.

I am going to stop letting the OPINIONS of others get to me.

I was granted the privilege of being able to speak to Chilly P. We spoke about the man, the man is a physical manifestation of the spectrum, there are light men and dark men. However, the creation of the light man is something radically different than the creation of the dark man. In fact, it is the opposite of what you may think I am talking about. The light (or coloured) man was made through the absorption of the light that gave us existence, the sun. I was shocked when the hypothesis of melanin being living light was brought up, and it makes complete sense. If matter from the source is embedded in our cells, how are we not the original man? I will let you sit on that until the egg hatches.

That was one part of the discussion. If you would like an in depth recreation of what the deal was, hit me up or drop a comment, I am more than willing to chat with anyone, I don't care what colour you are. I love minds that are open and emotions that are erratic.

There are times where you just need some solitude, some good books and the things that make YOU happy. Things that make you feel like a kid again, this way you will always find yourself in that happy, innocent place in your mind. Anything you do will make you happy because it comes from the foundation of your true happiness. Once that foundation is strong enough to hold you up, you will never be knocked down. Keep building my friends. Keep building.

November 18th.

2011-11-18T10:13:00.000-05:00

Today in History

"N*gga, what the fuck is Juice?"

& on a much lighter note.

Already.

I Shouldn't Have Made It Rain.

2011-11-15T01:22:00.000-05:00

The key to setting anything off is self-motivation.

I am working on my habit of not documenting things that should definitely be documented. It just so happens there is a twenty four hour college basketball marathon on. Just my luck and all of the motivation I need to stay up!

The National Basketball Association is something us up-and-coming world leaders grew up on. Do you think it is a lesson in, "Nothing lasts forever"? I think it is a lesson in, "Too much money isn't enough". Either way, I hope we all learn something valuable from this.

I want to speak on some of the horrifying incidents going on recently, but honestly, I don't want to give these situations any further attention, there are people in this world doing terrible things but you don't see them on the news, you don't even know about them, and that's the way it is when you follow the script of those looking at the bigger picture with no regard for anyone else.

I just want you to know, you can overcome any obstacle. Even if you have been through the worst of times, it only means you will smile harder and release those tears of joy once the good times fall in. Think of how good that is going to feel. Think about the people who love you, think about how much you love them. Use your inspiration to your advantage.

Some Of This And Some Of That.

2011-11-11T12:36:00.001-05:00

I am happy to be alive and I am thankful for the circumstances leading me to this point in my life.

I am aware of what day it is. So, I will do something that doesn't really make sense in my mind only because I haven't found a solid solution to it. I was looking at numbers, and reading into some Zodiac stuff and stumbled upon a crazy hypothesis. If this has been said by someone else I had no idea and pardon my ignorance. But before I tell you what it is, here is a quick story.

I was having a pretty bad day three Earth days ago. I will not go into details but I kept seeing the number six in a lot of places. I mean a lot. To top it off, however, towards the end of my day, the person picking me up from work caught a flat. I met a guy named David, and he helped us fix the flat. I will not tell you how crazy my mind was going after seeing the number six all day and ending it with a guy named David helping me with a flat.

I am a live today so if there was some kind of negative omen involved with six, it missed me, life is what you make it I guess. Would that mean everything is what you make it? Does that mean we can do whatever we want? Help me figure that out and we can rule the world.

On to my Zodiac hypothesis, could it be there were a founding group of idea makers who acted a certain way? With those actions being set in stone because they were made by the primary thinkers and doers so to speak, have those actions been passed down to the point where they have to be done by people born in a specific time period? I just read my Zodiac joints and say, the people who passed these traits down to me must have been nuts!

Then it starts to look like a triangle again, same basic principles, more people and more variables. Then you add technology and all of that and it makes it easier to mask what the real deal truth is. What that truth is? I am still looking but I got you with the info once I get it. Drop a comment, live your life, because... it is yours. I am just chilling, and pouring mind juice everywhere. @WEAREGREIGHT hit me up.

Don't Act Like You Didn't Know

2011-11-09T23:43:00.001-05:00

(Bang.. 'Til it clicks.)

Jusqu'ici tout va bien…

(Sitting here staring at the computer screen.)

"I am going to stay away from those who have nothing but self interest in mind."

Time flies.

Did you know Abraham Lincoln suffered from depression?

(One of my favourite books, by the way.)

He signed the thirteenth amendment abolishing slavery on

The First of February.

That's 84 days until I drop my project.

& now that I've said it..

It means I actually have to do it.

yeah.

"Be careful when a naked person hands you a shirt."

Peace, Mortals..

2011-11-09T21:15:00.000-05:00

Turn The Page.

2011-11-09T14:23:00.001-05:00

I have been feeling a bit out of place. Maybe it is where I need to be, maybe I wasn't supposed to be where I am in the first place. I don't care about what I could have done, I have to move forward.

I have been played for a fool. But I have learned from my mistakes and I know for a fact good things lie ahead of me and the people I care for. I had a lot of love for a specific number of people, a lot of time invested but all of that is going to change because I have vowed to invest my time in more serious matters. There is a lot going on out there and I want to be apart of it. I know who will understand this.

I am currently reading about our government and it all leads to one conclusion. They are afraid of us. But then again, isn't the hero always afraid of the capabilities of the Villain? Yes, because the Villain moves in a way the hero cannot understand. Always be different, always be on guard. The songs above are just some joints I was listening to recently and heard some crazy similarities. I was going to delve deeper but I will leave that to you. Get some research done.

I am going to stay away from those who have nothing but self interest in mind.

Bonus:

The Girl From Ipanema by Astrud Gilberto and Stan Getz
Shiny Suit Theory by Jay Electronica, Jay-Z and The Dream
Dancing With A Rich Man by R. Kelly
Fancy by The Dream
The Ruler's Back by Slick Rick
The Ruler's Back by Jay-Z

Observe & Pounce

2011-11-06T13:31:00.000-05:00

Don't. Chase.

This Is What Silence Looks Like.

2011-11-04T01:27:00.001-04:00

I AM READY TO TAKE CONTROL OVER EVERYTHING I HAVE IMAGINED.

With that mindset, I've noticed, comes a bunch of sacrifices. Those sacrifices however, come with a great number of opportunities which, when taken advantage of, leaves a larger space for our imaginations to create a world for those who want to live equally with a higher sense of being in mind. Being what? Whatever we want, that's the point right? Cycles are man made and if we want to survive in the real world we need to adapt easily and readily. I am thinking about all of the positivity I want to spread around. I find it crazy how I start thinking about all of the good stuff, then a small wave of negativity hits me.

I feel like I am being redundant but honestly, positive reinforcement is better than none right? I would rather be the Stork who has seen it all a few times than the pig who is stuck on the farm waiting to be on Food Network. I hope we don't get sued for that but the shows on there have way too many dishes with pork, I can't stand it at times. However, I have learned that thinking about the bad going on right now is only keeping those things tangible. If we want strive towards eliminating negativity, we need to stop thinking negatively.

The winter is approaching much faster than I had anticipated which is probably natures way of telling me to hustle hard while I have the time to myself. I feel a great number of changes coming and with them a very great number of good times. To those of you who think about me when we don't talk much, please know that I think about you often and yes, I am talking to you. The most recent times we have shared were not without reason and we will be spending a lot more time together once things start picking up.Are you doing well? Please feel free to use the comment section, it is pretty dope seeing the comment icon show up. Peace and Blessings. The beginning of every task is always the hardest, but after you have mastered getting over the hard part, you will obtain the versatility needed for the hardest parts of making life decisions.

2011-11-03T11:01:00.000-04:00

"Here is the fountain of action and of thought."

2011-11-01T00:43:00.001-04:00

It's me again..

The Girl.

Not sure what to say to you.
Thank You.
1st & Foremost.
For stopping by.
(It's always good to give thanks.)
& I feel like if I type long enough I'll think of something important to say.
Or something better to give to you.
My Mother once told me that I was absolutely out of my mind.
For not sharing the things I know.
Or that I enjoy.

Have I told you this story already?

(I felt a little ashamed.

Because, some people are unappreciative.

& It takes a lot for Me..

to share with You my favourite things

and you not even think anything of it.)

Not her, though.. She was filled with gratitude.

Anyway.

I remember the exact moment she said it..

I handed her this:

"Self-Reliance" Ralph Waldo Emerson

I've given you the PDF link for it &

I know. It's long. But, it's something I've lived by..

So. You can take it or leave it..

It's all up to you.

No matter what.

Give way to your emotions.

Feel.

Live.

We don't have forever.

A show.

2011-10-31T12:16:00.002-04:00

Someone told me I should post more.
I believe in that notion,
FIRST OF ALL: http://pirchedbirds.tumblr.com
I SHOULD talk.
Though, I rather post random videos,
ENJOY:

Yourstru.ly Presents: BIG K.R.I.T. & Grillade "Hometown Hero" from Yours Truly on Vimeo.

Fell Asleep At The Wheel.

2011-10-31T02:46:00.000-04:00

Never let the negative energy consume you.

I have some things to say before I really get into what I feel is the next stage in my life.

Initially, this was a very lengthy paragraph but after some review of my thoughts, I was able to narrow it down a bit. No, I am not dumbing it down, do not worry it was just a bunch of fancy stuff.

First off, I learned from a valuable source that when being the generous soul you are, in a place where generosity is taken advantage of or treated unfairly, a few factors come into play. The only one I want to touch on is the fact that you may be in the wrong place, point, blank, period. You have placed your being in an environment not suited for achieving equilibrium to the fullest potential and you must do what you have to in order to change that. But when doing so, it is always important to remember the first sentence of this post.

Although I have yet to travel as much as I would like to, I believe I have taken a great number of mind trips. I have had to adapt to the many thoughts, motives and the ever so ambiguous feelings of our time and what I came up with simply points in one direction. If you were paying attention you know what it is, if not, find yourself, find me and tell me the answer. I might give you a prize, or a hug depending on how much money is in my pocket or what is in my bag.

I have a bunch of media to display but I need an external SD card reader to plug into my laptop. Contact me if you have one. Leave a comment or something like that.

Before I try to get six in, imagine this; you are the one in control of your life. You can easily and readily control the state of living you are engaged in, you need to want it though. How happy will you be when you can say you are really and truly the one running your life?

You will wake up in time to grab the wheel before heading over the cliff.

Control my Senses.

2011-10-29T14:00:00.004-04:00

Just mobbin, creating, moving forward.
Catch me.

More!

2011-10-27T14:11:00.003-04:00

So why do I choose to hesitate?
& why does the HRC keep sending me these fucking stickers?

Do they know I love slaps?
But, do they know how cheap I am?
How I won't pay their membership fees..
I don't think my contribution will change the fact that any company in the state of North Carolina has grounds to fire someone based on their sexuality and not be questioned about it in the court of law..
Yeah. That's true..
(I think. No, I'm sure it is.. I swear..)

Curses!

Money's tight. She's pissed. She wants to be spent. Thrown at strippers asses and slammed on expensive tables after expensive meals.

"HERE'S YOUR TIP!"

Oh, and here's one for you:

Fuckity, Fuck, Fucker.

I can't stop cursing even if I tried..

But, do I really want to?

No.

Not as much as I want to travel to Japan.

I'm... Not content. or Satisfied.
I'm so anxious.
I've been asleep for 3 Years.
Ya know? Do you understand what I'm saying?
Like time passing. & I was comatose.
Beatrix Kiddo was in a coma for 4 years.
I've got one more left.
Or should I just like.. get up and stay ahead.

(Oh, yeah.

Community Service sucked Balls.

Big. Ones.

But, I did end up seeing my childhood desk there.

The lamp. The spinning marker holder.

It was like a beacon of artistic truth.)

Relax.. Remember?

Sneaky.

2011-10-26T19:13:00.001-04:00

THERE WILL BE A TIME IN OUR LIVES WHERE ALL WE CAN DO IS BE GREAT.

I had an interesting chat with some family last night.

I tried to condense my answers in an attempt to make the conversation short, didn't happen.

I like being challenged, felt good.

I feel motivated.

There are times where I feel like the energy of the Universe helps me when I feel like this.

At this point, one can only assume but I like it.

There are a large number of people I plan on reaching out to.

Regardless of the past.

Then there is always that small group of people who already know what it is.

Stay ahead of the game.

Count your Blessings.

Your curses only make you stronger.

Say it out loud.

And.....

Eat cupcakes.

Parlez la vie.
I sat smiling like a little girl for a good five minutes.
Thank you.

Baffled

2011-10-19T13:09:00.002-04:00

Live & Direct

2011-10-15T11:56:00.001-04:00

It's been while since I've blogged via mobile device.
Get used to it.
I shut my tumblr down.
Too much noise on my dashboard.
But, fuck it though.
Style still Flow.

I'm currently sitting next to a soft spoken mechanic.
& It sure doesn't feel like October down here.

2011-10-10T22:17:00.004-04:00

Improvise.

2011-09-30T14:41:00.004-04:00

I've been sitting in my room for months.
Feeling lost,
Hungry,
Stoned,
Obviously it's been a while.
Once again, I am sorry for such an abrupt absence.
I've just been growing ten fold every day, finding what sensibility is left in these bones.
Its always the same struggle.
Always the same wanderlust.
Lust, in addition to Love has been put on momentary pause, I cant let such addictions run rampant in my head, discovering how much something affects your emotional sanity is a real eye opener.
Yes, Im single.
Though alone, I do not understand this concept of individuality.
The want involved in "putting down" your peers has made a turn for the worse,
I fell into depression because of a rumor for a while.
I became less than human for a moment.
Lower then dirt.
FUCK THAT SHIT.
"the name I use will be built by noone but myself. Besides, I aint noone's fuckin pawn. Not when my my mama showed me, I was King." -BYung
Poetry,
Art,
Criminal Activity.
Heres some fucking photos.

I love you like crazy.
The secret to living is inside your head.
STEADY MOBBIN

-W.Spahk

Forget It All, Start All Over.

2011-09-28T19:26:00.000-04:00

There are no limits to the thoughts you can have, thus, there is no limit to the things you can do in this world. I have really been looking at things in a scientific and psychological manner and all of my conclusions are the same. We are not alike and there is nothing I can do to stop that. I love people so much, but it is now time I put my hands where they belong. Nobody wants to learn from someone they feel they are better than and not one person wants to feel as though they are not hustling as hard as someone sitting next to them, especially when the one doing all of the hustling doesn't show it in a traditional manner. The Mountain is calling my name so loudly, it is almost as if it is the only voice I can hear. I often see myself walking into a white room and using my brain power to create a world like no other. There are so many things flooding my mind, possibilities, I know I have strayed away from my path but in all honesty, I think my path was made to be walked away from and I am supposed to create my own path out of the one I created, lost inside of my own labyrinth and every turn is a new learning experience, the only time I am going in the wrong direction is when I am walking in the direction I came from, or when I am walking on a similar path as someone I am trying to be better than. I am tired of having to be part of an equation. I am tired of useless relationships. I am tired of a lot of things, but this is now the time for me to say fuck being tired. I am awake and a lot of people aren't. Pardon my arrogance or take it for what it is worth.

September Twenty Eighth, Two Thousand Eleven.

I waited a while before I finished this post and you will see why in a few seconds depending on how fast you read this:

I gave way too many damn's when I should not have.
I am a highly emotional person.
I have been doing my science homework.

I come to you a somewhat humble man, HA! In recent times, I have been throwing my name all over the place in an attempt to test out the mechanisms of change starting with simple agreements among small groups who want to expand. I will tell you this, I met a lot of great people and hopefully, no, happily I can say things are moving in the right direction. There is no need to fill a personal void if your goal is to make the bigger picture better. The number of people joining in the critique of capitalism are growing both in mind and in numbers and it is showing itself all over. They say numbers do not lie, but try walking around without knowing the time tomorrow. I dare you. Not in a hostile manner of course, simply, take everything in for as long as YOU can. This requires taking a risk but I got a whistle by taking a risk.

Do not, for one second, think I was slipping, though.

2011-09-26T12:30:00.001-04:00

Genesis

SAMO IS DEAD

2011-09-26T03:19:00.000-04:00

It's over for that.

Rebel, Rebel.

2011-09-24T21:53:00.001-04:00

*

~~I don’t. Give a. Fuck.~~

Stress was fueled by limitations.

Confusion brought on by thoughts of acceptance from society.

The sidelines.

That’s not ladylike. Proper business etiquette.

Normality is a coincidence.

A common joke.

Sometimes I forget how much I don’t care.

Shouldn’t.

Won’t.

I was put on this earth to shake shit up. No more. No less.

Why settle? What the fuck are you so afraid of?

I'm selfish.

"God", Gold, (Not Pictured/Coming Soon) & Glory.

Peace. Power.

Control.

Subject #20

2011-09-24T21:33:00.001-04:00

Subject #20 from Brief Interviews With Hideous Men (2009)

A strong, weird feeling.

2011-09-13T22:13:00.001-04:00

(Forget Gender)

Focus on the Honesty.

Sincerity.

The fucking Irony.

Sincerity without Interruption.

2011-07-27T16:23:00.000-04:00

2011-07-22T17:05:00.002-04:00

How do you make God laugh?

Make a plan.

2011-07-22T08:04:00.003-04:00

(That's Me)

2011-07-18T21:22:00.001-04:00

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ELLECTRICFEEL

2011-07-17T21:29:00.000-04:00

Don't sweat the small stuff.

My eye has been bloodshot for the past week. (Thankfully it's fading away.)

Was probably because of the paint.

Fucking paint.

Who knew. Just because you can draw with pencil

doesn't mean you can do the same with paint brushes.

Get some acrylic in your nails. Scratch your eyeballs. Look like shit.

All I could do was laugh though.

An EyePatch would be so BadAss.

Whistle while you work.

More Love, More Life.

2011-07-01T15:37:00.000-04:00

This is just some stuff I was listening to, watching, thinking about. I have been sad lately despite trying to stay positive. The two feelings are clashing and I know sooner or later a breakdown/overload of emotions is going to occur. I guess I am just preparing myself in order to attempt coming out of it feeling good. Maybe I am just making too much of a big deal out of things, maybe I am trying to believe that just so I can stay calm, either way I am just going to keep my cool and focus.

I hope you are doing well though, I see that you are going through some changes, I know you have the capacity to adapt to the situation and come out on top. As I once heard in a New Edition song, "Keep on learning, keep on growing." Johnny Gill did very well on that track, it is on the Heart Break album which has a pretty dope cover. But that is besides the point, keep smiling and keep creating you know the people love to see it.

Almost reminds me of a love letter.

2011-06-16T20:00:00.000-04:00

"I hope you are doing well.
Remember when we used to talk and share ideas and you told me I was an alright person?
I remember, but I don't want to remind you.
The past isn't a friend of the future."

What Have I Done?

2011-06-16T19:47:00.002-04:00

I saw what a three dimensional television has to offer. I am not quite sure how I feel, although I do know that I walked away and everything looked really strange. I don't think I will be doing that again. Have you seen what technology has to offer these days? I went into a store, looked around and I am just baffled. I don't feel like a caveman but I do feel like I stopped caring about the latest gadgets at the right time. There are a lot of expensive items out there as well, items I thought were needed for operating a lot of the new software. I guess nothing in life is free, but then again, we pay for water and food. I wouldn't be surprised if air was next, actually, I think you do have to pay for air at the hospital, don't quote me on that though.

Times are changing, people are too. I don't know that for sure though, maybe they have been that way their whole lives and just decided to show up to the party now. I don't blame them, this party is pretty stiff. I have never been much of a party guy.

I have been applying to jobs like it is my job but I have yet to get any positive feedback. I even had one guy tell me not to call and check on the status of my application before I even filled it out. I feel like I should call anyway.. I checked online to see how to fix the screen on my phone and the only thing I got out of it was to totally disassemble my phone and put it back together once the screen was replaced. I don't want to do that for a few reasons but the main one is because I don't want to destroy my phone just to fix the screen. If you know a spot that fixes screens or how I can do it myself without taking the whole thing apart, I will love you long time.

I have learned I am no longer in a position to make points about topics, it just doesn't work anymore. I can only be me.

Besides trying to gain weight, stay calm and focused, I don't know what else to say about my life.

I guess I have just fallen off of the map as far as exciting times are concerned.

Well, exciting in the 2011 sense.

I hope you are doing well.

Remember when we used to talk and share ideas and you told me I was an alright person?

I remember, but I don't want to remind you.

The past isn't a friend of the future.

The present just is so I guess he doesn't care either.

I do, maybe too much.

I really hope I didn't spell anything wrong.

Vanessa, you are the best, I miss you.

Roam Free

2011-06-12T16:59:00.000-04:00

2011-06-09T18:04:00.001-04:00

Communication Breakdown

2011-06-09T17:57:00.000-04:00

So, like.

The ease of communication is at an all time high. But, who am I to say that action isn't? I was going to. But I'll save you the grief. Have we lost our sense of individuality or are we trading it in for some type of group collaborative in order to challenge to the social infrastructure. History repeats itself and you can see this happening in various countries all over the world. I want to give the American Generation that I find myself in the benefit of the doubt 'cause I know we can fuck shit up no problem.

I've decided to save all the professional pieces and such from future writings because I'm no journalist. & I'm far from a writer. Ask me what an adverb is. I'm not radiating deep intellect.

But, shit. Did a Facebook group really kick off the uprising in Egypt?

Ai Wei Wei has been detained by the Chinese government.

That mans name isn't even allowed in search engines within China.

Ah! Shits tough. Gotta put my foot in it.

This isn't a lecture.

This is like. A break.

Doing something different.

It's an adventure, right?

I wanna show you how easy it is. To Challenge Authority.

2011-06-09T17:38:00.000-04:00

Roll with the punches. But, keep your guards up.
Forward Focus.

When All Else Fails...

2011-06-02T14:55:00.000-04:00

Take some pictures.

Just go out and do things.

2011-05-28T09:09:00.001-04:00

Why You Do That!?

2011-05-22T14:04:00.000-04:00

Shout out to Max B for helping me with the title. You have created a wave that will not crash. I cannot get this line out of my head, and frankly, I don't care.

"She said don't call me baby, don't categorise me with all of your ladies."

This seems like the only place I can convince people I am who I say I am, even in person I feel like there are some who feel like I am just playing the game of life the same as everyone else. Nah, get off of that, there are two parts to any relationship and if you haven't played your part for a long period of time, I will notice and I will not let you slide by. Going through the motions is one thing I learned will kill a person with no remorse.

"The game itself, don't notice your stress, you'll get left smoking, zoning on steps, you know!?"

I have been stressed lately, not knowing what is going on and trying not to care. I have been turning a blind eye to many of the problems in an attempt to take things one step at a time. It is very hard living that life, I have enough patience to wait for things but not enough to sit back and watch things happen, you know what I mean? We can talk about it. You won't hit me up although I would like you to.

I haven't been posting because I have been waiting for that little box with the number of new comments to show up, it never did. It's all love though, the summer is coming, people have lives to live, love lost, love found, jobs and all of that good stuff that comes along with them. I understand, I really do. I have to buy a new camera cord thanks to my Mothers OCD but when I get it I will have a lot for you guys to see here. I know how my words can be bothersome, maybe even depressing, SKIP TO THE FOLLOWING PARAGRAPH.

You're the best, you can do whatever you set your mind to. You have the ability to change your surroundings. You just have to believe you can do it, you just have to want to do it. Stop worrying about what others will think, stop worrying about what you will think about yourself once you have made the necessary changes because you can only think more confidently and more progressively. Elevation of mind and body can only produce positive results if you positively think you can do it. Remain above the masses, love yourself and everyone will have love for you and in turn you can find it easier to love everyone.

Holy.

2011-04-26T03:28:00.004-04:00

"Got these faggots shouting' "revolution!"
I am Earl, the shit's ruthless
in the booth it's no spoofing' bitch I spit like I'm toothless.
Fool, OF crew fooled y'all fuits and I'm lyin' like, "fuck truth",
dropping' shit like pollution.
Dirty like a bum's un-wiped ass
now I'm transitionin' from class clown to cash cow.
Indeed, I got steez to pass out, believe I'm dope,
a fuckin' breathin' crack house.
She diseased on her knees, with ass out
Ace got on a ski-mask, she gon' need knee pads
Supreme 5-panels and green hats
Y'all don't come close like Winehouse and rehab,
Goin' back, know the crafty assholes plateau
got the game in a motherfuckin' lasso.
Ride that ho, cruisin' in the music with the attitude of two kids,
Make 'em respect my two cents,
Could really give two shits, let alone a dollar.
My flows make bros go, "whoa". Your mother says, "holla".
Wack niggas say, "nada". OF the best, no synonym.
Still my pockets slim like the Olsen twins.
It's on, off I piss 'em and dismissin' em quick,
and my sentences stay Oliver Twistin' like Charles Dickens.
Death wishing' competition, but listen the plot thickens.
I'm a stand up nigga, well fuck it I'm not sitting."

- Earl Sweatshirt (Cop Killer Verse)
The Kids Interesting Indeed.

2011-04-26T00:24:00.000-04:00

Bathroom Break

2011-04-22T19:14:00.000-04:00

"Rule" Nas & Amerie

likewise

"CocaineKeys" MellowHype

Act II

2011-04-22T01:16:00.001-04:00

"The Turn"

The magician takes the ordinary something and makes it do something extraordinary.

I'm next up to Bat.

Kind of looks like a repeat of some post I've done some time ago.

But, it's not. Promise.

I'm just back at Square One.

Alone.

Trying my best to do right by you.

It's gotten to the point where I have become obssessed with challenging myself.

My brain.

See how far I can go.

What if this shit works?

Will we make the books?

We'll make the books.

Ourselves.

Freedom = Choice

Every decision you've ever made ultimately decides your fate & defines you.

They're extensions of the soul & senses.

If you knew better you'd

Do Better.

Don't Stop.

Keep going.

Nikki Tesla. I shock like an Eel..

Be yourself, Kiddies. I'm watching

2011-04-14T20:42:00.000-04:00

PATRICK BATEMAN IS A BLOGGER

American Psycho was released 11 years ago today.

& it just happens to be one of my all time favourites.

2011-04-06T16:24:00.001-04:00

Testing. Check one. Check two.

Knowing You Can Do Everything.

2011-04-04T15:35:00.000-04:00

You damn sure don't need a pill. I fell asleep thinking I can rule the world, I woke up to a bunch of employers telling me I wasn't going to get the jobs I applied for. I looked through Twitter only to find most of my associates have their own lives to worry about and my views on what is going on are far too left field for them to really care. I didn't Tweet. I went back into my head, I started to think of myself as a whole, a human. A body that works with a brain that doesn't need to be reminded to work, and then I started thinking about my brain. It does so much yet none of the things I think about seem to do anything but stay in my head, and when I do speak, I just confuse things for those around me, or I stir up some kind of debate. Is it acceptance I am looking for? Some sort of understanding? Human words that I will probably never be able to grasp. I question whether or not I want to be all by myself or if I need people because of how bad things can get by my lonesome. I just want to work and provide for both myself and the people who share what I keep for the most part locked in my head. I start thinking about how much more I can learn and how much I don't know. But I feel trapped at times even helpless. I look in the mirror and tell myself there are better things waiting for you once you get moving, but I find the only place I can go and be at peace with myself is the library. There is no twenty-four hour library though. I think about how I almost became a robot and thank God for putting me where I am at, but I don't ask him why I am suffering so much because of my new knowledge, I only take it as a sign of causality. I ask him to watch over the people caught in my web of confusion both directly and indirectly. I am sorry if I lost you I am just trying to clear my head. There is so much I want to know but I have a feeling I am just going to have to roll with these thoughts until I find the answers through the hard lessons I am used to learning. I think about how it could turn me into a cold individual, that scares me, it scares me so much. I stop thinking and put on some music, eat, read, write, sketch, something to remind myself that I am not just a brain. I am a human who is capable of doing great things and the hope shines through that dark cloud I set up in a matter of hours. Then I go to sleep knowing I can do anything.

My Mother tells me I am strong.

I just want her to be correct.

Waking up.

2011-03-29T19:09:00.004-04:00

"Survival Is Everything"

SUP? Its been a while since the last time I posted on here.
Ive been caught up in the fast pace of a more free form life, evidently the term "free form" is more of a benign status, an excuse.
- Ive begun to refuse any excuse, Purposefully walkyou away from so called friends, in an attempt to better my surroundings. Change? Is much more prominent then its ever been, if this turning of a new leaf had come any sooner, it wouldnt have been soon enough.

Im trying to keep everything inside my head.
My girlfriends helping me out alot, if come to know her extremely well, fallen in love and shes my bestfriend, I couldnt ask for more honestly.

Ive been busy creating

Teaching myself better painting and drawing techniques, Writing poems day in and out.
So when people ask me things such as, "What am I doing with my life?" I tell them shit like; "Growing."

How funky is this?
Who the fuck are you to be stepped over?
#NP Just Another day - Blu & Exile
Chukka Lows>>>
Exceeding the potential.
"The force is strong with this one"

The phrase at the top of this post, came from a friend of mine who passed, they read that at his funeral. Told everyone there to use his death as a traction for moving forward, to climb every mountain, because thats what he was striving for and expected from his peers.

Ive been struggling with myself.
Its time I move forward. #Evolution

Love me until morning?

-W.Spahk

A Story To Pass The Time./I Never Meant To Break Your Heart.

2011-03-26T22:33:00.000-04:00

You ever just sit back and formulate something so insane, you couldn't just let it stay in your mind? He didn't want to tell anyone so he just wrote it on a piece of paper. It started off with a quote:

Bad times have a scientific value. These are the occasions a good learner would not miss.

-Emerson

He felt as though he had been through some rough times so this sparked a thought in his mind. From now on, he wasn't going to let the tough times get to him, instead he was going to make something great happen for every time he felt as though he had been cheated, lied to and wronged. He knew it wasn't going to be easy especially because he was surrounded by the cold, heartless Streamsters. The origin of these vile individuals will be revealed later but this was a time for celebration. He looked up and saw he still had some Brain Power left from some previous exploits and the thought of partaking lingered. But then, Snoop whispered in his ear. "Ain't no fun if the homies can't get none." Snoop was right, never partake in something so social alone, especially because once the mind starts racing, you cannot slow it down by your lonesome. Last time he tried he almost died. Another thought hit him, he was spending so much time thinking about the beloved power source, he had lost track of what he was doing. A string of vivid images flashed before him and he got back to jotting. He was trying to come up with a plan to make sure all of his people could escape the harm of the Streamsters. He knew that if they could do that, maybe life wouldn't be all about what the Slab was showing them, or what the High Tops told them they should have. They would have each other, and each other was enough. He thought about his heart and how proud they would be if he was able to be a part of the solution and not the problem. But for now, all he had were his thoughts and his words.

In order to make a new group of creators, a new group of individuals must come into power. A group determined to put an end to the spreading of false values as well as show humanity how the inverse of these falsehoods can be used to create a better future which in turn, could change the definition of human nature. Is it not the goal of our species to grow and expand? We know what can happen to a stagnant nation ruled by materialism and the lack of will to create, only build upon what has already been destroyed. In the words of Mindy from, "The Grim Adventures of Billy and Mandy", "It's like putting diamonds on doo doo." We need to put our diamonds to use.

This was the start of something he felt was going to both liberate his mind from the destruction the world was causing itself as well as hopefully spark the same enthusiasm he was feeling, but in others.

2011-03-25T19:33:00.000-04:00

Remember the days when you would buy a tape and it was divided into side A and B? I was watching "Ray" and he made a song so long, he had to make it an A side and B side, dope stuff if you ask me. Crazy how the same label that helped him rise to fame is the same label that is being accused of holding back artists' material based on the fact that it isn't dumb enough to be soaked up by today's mainstream music "fans". However, this isn't about that, this is about how much music has changed and how it will be in the future. How do you see music growing and evolving from today's current artists? I have taken a listen to some of the recent music coming out of the city I grew up in:

Theo Martins

Ceez Luciano

Yung Cam

All three of these covers are from the artists' most recent works and within the links posted as their names, you will find a wealth of information needed to get more of a feel for the artists. There is something here for everyone, that feel good get down and be free music, that night life get right music and music for the person just trying to fall back and enjoy what life has given them while maintaining the work hard mindset. All of these will give you a sense of what hard work can lead to. Do not judge a book by its cover, and do not take the flowers for granted just because you can still smell them.

Truly Adore You/Always Two Sides.

2011-03-14T18:24:00.000-04:00

I am the type to stress little things because I know for a fact they turn into bigger things later. Things grow, good and bad, it is the way of the world. What you choose to let grow is entirely up to you. This has both a global and local meaning in my life. I do not know where I am going with this post so bear with me. today marks the day that I have been with my woman for two Earth years (which could change soon due to the numerous earthquakes plaguing this planet) and I am very happy with who I have chosen to be with. It is crazy how when I am not around, a flock of thirsty dudes want to literally say. "I heard [The Mountain Man] is gone, how have you been, what's good with you, he left so what he doesn't know won't hurt him." and a bunch of different shit like that INCLUDING, "Let me spark you up".There are a bunch of "men" around with child like tendencies. Pardon my French but how the hell do you get off knowing you're going after a woman who one, gets the D on the regular, two, had no interest in you when I was in close proximity and three, didn't even want you from the get go! Furthermore, why are you trying to make things easy for yourself by bagging a woman who has gained a wealth of knowledge from a different perspective both gender and culture wise? Do you not have the charm and intelligence to make a woman see things your way and love you for what you really and truly believe? Oh, I get it, you're not an individual so you want to feel like a man by trying to smut out a woman with standards. You are all a bunch of cowards and if you feel a way about this I will have my woman give you my info and that is real rap.There are a bunch of single women out there and I feel like you go after mine because the rest of them are just as simple minded and easy to manipulate as you. It is time to grow up and start something worth finishing and picking up where I started isn't the way to go.

I am sorry about that folks, and I am very sorry Nessly but I had to let some things be known. I am in love son what can I say! But I am also learning and this will be a lesson, for me and others. And all of that slick talking from the peanut gallery can stop now because I don't even eat peanuts.

Back to the topic, I have been getting myself into go mode lately with no plans on stopping. This may seem a bit confusing to some, but this is honestly the only life I am going to get and my goals are WAY bigger than what this country, this body of mine and even this world can contain. Did you ever notice there is no topic!? Just live your life man (and woman) my Grandmother told me that after she had a heart attack she stopped letting anything get her angry. Do you know how G that is!? I am trying to get on her level and these next few posts are just going to be me letting stuff off of my chest so I can have a clean slate to start my success on.

We are on a love mission and no one is going to stop us.

Also, we don't care about your money.

This post is an unfinished thought so make way for the real.

2011-03-03T14:58:00.000-05:00

"Yes! 'Tis the pulse of the life!

my fears were in vain!

I wake, I breathe, and myself again.

don't feel a thing."

Play This On The Radio.

2011-02-23T16:06:00.000-05:00

I started out reading, now, I am going to start applying the knowledge. I need to start valuing my life a lot more than I have been these past few years. I have been caught up with drugs and the people who deal them, poorly at that, women who play games but assure themselves they are keeping it real and probably any other mind deterring obstacle you can think of. I blame myself for the most part, I am smarter than I would like to believe but I feel like I am one part of a bigger equation and the people I was surrounding myself with (who are also trying to make it to "the top") were going to help me complete that equation. What I failed to realise was; no matter how much I can get MY point across and no matter how much I THINK people are listening, I am not a mind reader and what they do is out of my control. Thus, I have found the solution to all of my problems. For now. I am just going to do things my way and for the people I love. My mother always told me I have no friends and I am just now seeing what she is saying. You either love me or you do not and the word "friend" was made to create some type of midway point in between the two. I have never been a fan of in between.

My apologies for the lack of visuals but for right now, I feel like my words should be enough. If you love someone, let them know. If you do not love them, don't say anything if it isn't nice, why put yourself through tough times!? Humans (as far as we know) are given one life on this planet of ours, if it was even ours to begin with. If you feel like you need a break, FOR YOU, take that shit and do not let anyone else tell you you don't need it, they don't know how you are feeling and they definitely can't add time to your life when it is coming to an end.

I have, however, found a group. A group that wants to do for others what they would for themselves in this crazy time of learning and growing. You all know who you are and I would like to take this time to tell you thank you and tell you that my heart is beating because of you. I would be dead had I let the hatred and anger of outside interest get to me.

The Mountain Man is back and there are going to be some very big changes coming this way. Please continue to follow us on our/your way to the top. You will not be sorry.

Life is a great teacher, especially for those who learn nothing but hard lessons. I think this is what makes you a Villain, knowing what the world can bring you, and not taking it because YOU don't want to.

Celebrate Your Life..

2011-02-07T19:14:00.000-05:00

2011-02-05T16:06:00.001-05:00

I don't need to put a title for this one because it explains the first part of the previous title. A very strange phrase I chose to write about seeing as I had no idea I was going to even mention it until I spoke with Nessly and BooMBuSSiT. Do you think J. Cole is going to have a mixtape called, "The Come Down"? There must be extreme psychological damage done to people who aren't ready for the glitz and glam, and we are just seeing the beginning of a lot of people's careers. Don't get me wrong I wish everyone the best in their careers but it's just like Jay-Z said, "You better adhere to this text before you go, broke spending more than you've accrued ..." you know the rest.

Do you think the cure to overcoming this is to just try everything and fail? You might grow accustomed to seeing the inverse of the actions you take part in beforehand, leading to the distinction of whats important in life and what isn't. I know one thing, letting go is going to be the hardest part. But once you let go, well, the Joker already gave you he answer to that question. I just sat back the other day reflecting on the day when WHAM! This crazy wave from the past swept in and showed me everything I needed to see in about five minutes. Then I got into a conversation about being contained and living under a small scope.

You ever sit down, doing something of importance to you, look up and time has robbed you of something you will never get back? Maybe it's me just looking at the glass half empty but hey, there are such things as activities that waste time. I have to be more aware of my surroundings when I am saucy. I just want to have a good time. But that is another story for another time. Right now I feel like I have already said too much but keep this in mind my people, there is no real gain unless whatever you are going for completely switches the script for those stuck in another mindset. However, you do not have to destroy or even claim to be better than someone else, just make sure to cover any holes one might try to poke in your theories and do what you have to do to get your point across. Not everyone will listen, they might even make fun of you, but that's when you can at least say you have broken away from the norm and are heading in the right direction.

I am not much of a fan of political correctness, or things that are socially acceptable/unacceptable. Society is messed up and politics are.... politics. I will have a clear and possibly more specific style of writing in the next post. But you should read this and a few other posts in the meantime.

Keep living, keep learning.

2011-02-05T08:41:00.001-05:00

That ain't the way you make love..

The Come Down./We Could Have Got Bread Together.

2011-01-31T14:23:00.000-05:00

The second part of the title is line from Nas & Kanye West's "Still Dreaming".

I read something about my astrological sign saying that my sign is easily manipulated.

I guess its time to re-evaluate some things.

Women are the first that come to mind when doing this.

Then I start living, and realise the people who are meant to be in my life are there because I want them to be. The others are just there to help pass time while I get my mind right until the next scene in Sergio's Way. They also help me learn the lessons I need to keep out of the underworld. The, "make mad money and the future will be okay" world. Money isn't going to ensure a safe future. I read a book and now that I have the makings of a solid base for a secure state of mind that no one can interrupt, I am going to build a mountain. What's going to be at the top of that mountain? High expectations for the youth to try and build another mountain better than mine. But be aware I have "Champagne taste but Kool-Aid money". In my mothers mind it means I spend more than I should but in my mind it's I can make something great out of anything. Either way, we stay winning.

This is the part where I say, "See you later, I have to go to work."

I really mean, "See you later, the man is still winning."

Don't fret my love, I will be back.

When it comes to you the possibilities are endless and the projects are limitless.

Just the way it was supposed to be.

2011-01-17T17:28:00.002-05:00

early.

2011-01-14T14:42:00.002-05:00

2011-01-13T18:29:00.002-05:00

"..No I’m saying that your gonna die and your gonna go off the earth, your gonna be dead. It could be in 20 years. It could be tomorrow. Anytime. So am I. I mean it’s gonna be gone. The world is gonna go on without us. Alright, now you do your job in the face of that and how seriously you take yourself , you decide for yourself."

La Révolution est comme Saturne. Elle dévore ses propres enfants.

2011-01-13T17:27:00.009-05:00

The Revolution is like Saturn. It devours its own children.

-Pierre Vergniaud (French Revolutionary, before his execution.)

I adore dual usage.
I find it imperative in a world of endless possibilities.

The beginning of a (or the) revolution may not be as discernible as we all hope it would be and it sure as hell isn't going to be as easy. The Revolution.. It's a change, a challenge. Giving society vertigo is an achievement that involves displacement. Losing you're mind for a new way of thinking, lust for passion, sleep for progress, and lastly you're own fatality for immortality. I think that's the way it works. We'll see.

The digital/technological revolution is quite the spectacle.. Complete with a plethora of knowledge and immeasurable communication. But, I've grown exhausted with it's negative aspect. I can't quite get the hang of social networks, fortunately. The fast food of the internet. There's no need to persevere and aim higher when you can represent anything and participate in anything without really doing something. Devoured by what was supposed to be the medium our messages. Leaving us on a plateau of stunted growth. Nothingness. (Sometimes, I feel like if I didn't update my Twitter I'd be consigned to oblivion) Until (because I am quick to forget), I realize that this is my world & I can do as I please. (Which is somewhat the grounds of a revolution, I suppose.)

2011-01-06T20:04:00.004-05:00

THE EYE OF HORUS.

2011-01-06T16:44:00.002-05:00

Also known as the eye of Providence. When thinking of the eye of a storm, you think of the calm right before things get real again. What if it was the inverse? What if everything was cool and mundane until this eye, this force just swept in and shook things up. Well that force is the city I grew up in, the capital of the smallest state in our country. The force was created by the need to be large at something. What it is? I won't tell you right now, only because it will be easier for you to see it in the future. Walk with us or run from us.

Party in the Evening of Eden from AnnMargaret Tutu

I showed you guys her blog and if you took heed to my suggestion you have probably watched this thirty times. An amazing display of poetic genius turned into a visual model for today's society of those who don't listen much, but would rather see things to believe them. She has you covered on both ends.

I could tell you all how much this guy has helped me out, on many different occasions, but I will save that for another day. I was granted a very honourable early listen to Cesar Luciano's "The Great Depression". All I can tell you is that it isn't the mindless BS hitting the mainstream these days. A very conscious and well thought out collection of songs that display the life of a man who has lived through acts our police cannot control and things that our government started but do not want to own up to. We all want to make it but by whose standards? This is music you make your own story to.

While you are on the interwebz you should also check out:
http://lftdr.com/
http://nickynicole.tumblr.com/
http://junebugsdead.tumblr.com/
http://hilholla.tumblr.com/
http://hensleyc.tumblr.com/
http://nesslybay.tumblr.com/
http://dontforgetthehotsauce.blogspot.com/

Good Things Really Come in Eight./Don't Get It Confused.

2010-12-20T22:22:00.000-05:00

Turning the woes of society, into the driving force for a new way of thinking. I know a great number of people who have been through some things, and have use the fact that they don't want to be associated with one way of thinking to propel themselves to heights unmatched by their peers.

Are you looking to get your health in check? Trying to get in shape but cannot stay away from the Intawebz or the great food McDonald's has to offer? http://vx90.blogspot.com/ has what you need. I know the man who runs this blog and seeing his hard work pay off is something that is both inspirational as well as informative. Not to mention I had homeroom with him in HS and he is one of the most genuinely funny people I know.

I was granted the pleasure of meeting an elegant young woman with knowledge beyond her years on this planet we think is ours. I haven't known her for very long but I have learned so much from her, it's like we have been chatting on the regular since the day I said fuck an organised living. http://sentientnation.blogspot.com/ You will not be dissatisfied.

Did you look at this and say, "Wall of text, not reading."?

I sat in the back, first I was thinking how much I wanted to leave.

That turned into me hating everything about the place.

Which turned into me hating why I was there.

And that is when I realised how much of a scumbag I really am.

I will be better though.

With that being said, peace to you all.

Don't be like Mike, be you.

And do not worry if you aren't here now.

I don't explain my actions so why question them?

Work In Progress/Hold Your Head Up.

2010-12-16T16:12:00.000-05:00

     Want to see something funny? Well this isn't the post you were looking for. I have found that there are some who are willing to risk everything, and those who want to keep it all and hope it will last forever. What makes you think there aren't people trying to take your forever away? Why is it that when a person wants assert themselves into a position of power, without using this country's ways of exploiting someone else, they get looked at as either crazy, or an idiot and no one listens. I won't front I tried using titles to simplify things, but it seems like that made everything worse because there are so many misrepresentations of the words I was using. But think about this, my explanations had nothing to do with the words but everything at the same time. Does that mean I am being ambiguous? I need help with that if it does. If not, you should listen up, or at least read some of our stuff on here.
I was talking to some very helpful people last night and came to a few conclusions. But the relationship we share right now won't let me tell you all of the secrets, yet. I have to make sure everything is in order. I did realize however, that my life is mine and I could be doing much worse. I am going to make the most of it and most of all, I am going to do what I want because the map I am making will only lead me towards my goals.
     If this is your first time peeping this blog, for whatever reason, I will re-introduce myself. I am the stupid guy who tried to use social networking as a way to get my point across. I am the idiot who tried attending social events to talk business. I am also the dumb ass working like a slave trying to get a promotion only to realise I am a slave to the system and they don't run a business that benefits the worker, only the district. I am living in a modern polis with thoughts of an outsider. I am the guy who has weekly mental breakdowns that are alleviated once The Clipse or Common comes on.
     If I am addicted to something, so are you. You wait for it weekly or bi weekly depending on where you are. Some people are so hooked on it they have to destroy the lives of others to get it daily. But they will defend themselves and say it was the life they were forced into. I don't believe that at all, it was the life you glorified so you tried to emulate it. You got past the first layer of what you thought would make you happy, what can be seen, but now you are trying to get out because you don't have everything you thought that life would bring. So you buy everything you can to ease the pain. The pain of being a slave to the dollar.

FUCK THE DOLLAR.

"Only broke niggas say that."

I AM NOBODY'S NIGGA.

"I feel locked up now I want to escape."

2010-11-30T12:43:00.003-05:00

I cried this morning.

Many thanks to @ohchayness 's blog.

Okurr.

Change of Location

2010-11-29T18:23:00.003-05:00

I'm currently living in Charlotte, North Carolina.

...and I kinda forgot how to blog..

Anyway, here are some pictures and a song.

(someone dropped their wig)

Numb/Fall Back.

2010-11-04T14:32:00.000-04:00

I woke up today and thought, what happens when I'm gone, for real? I don't mean gone as in my physical shell reaching it's limit, I mean when that smile fades away and all I have are the thoughts of progress and moving forward. The present is a gift but what happens when Christmas is over? Is it not time to use our gifts? Some people just throw them away, others break them, I just want to spread mine. And for that I will always love you but I will have to leave you. They keep telling me things will be fine but I know they won't be. I've lost the trust of too many people just being me so when I throw on the mask and I have to dip off into the world, what will they think of me then? Probably anything negative the mind can conceive because of where we come from. Nothing but desolate waste and fierce beasts. You didn't vote and you don't care but you want to do better? You can't even make a decision without the okay from your cool friends. But I'm not here to judge. I'm here to make change and I see some beautiful faces everyday who are down to ride as well as make changes themselves. I'm sorry I have let you down so many times, I'm just dying trying to find myself in this world. There are so many people who want you to be them, I refuse. I had a quote to add to this, but I forgot what it was. I hope it wasn't as sad as this post. I'm sorry I can't stop apologizing. I'm just going to end this say what you must.

Take A Step Back.

2010-11-03T04:25:00.000-04:00

But don't get too caught up in the moment.

@RichyProfit401: RT @RIP4Nuri: RT @AYO_TC: yo, the 2LiveBoys Blog and TEAMEIGHT blog are fuckin bomb.

Thank you all for the love, and shout out to 2LiveBoys.blogspot.com. I have been away but it has been hurting me more than you, I promise. Things have been pretty bananas but you know I can't forget you. This is love and with that being said, if you are feeling like your heart is into something for reasons other than the love, you should check that shit at the door because last time I checked a heart doesn't beat on fame and fortune, not that I'm saying it beats on love. In other words, this isn't a trend or a phase. I'm trying to keep that grind hard mentality but that term has so many uses in my head, I end up going back to working on mad tasks at a time. I'll slow down when I die I guess. Snitches really do get stitches. While I'm trying to work and maintain while still elevating, I hope you are all doing the same. Mastering your crafts, making small but necessary improvements everyday and hopefully gaining more knowledge to make the hard decisions easier to make. They don't make bags of chips like they used to. I'd get into all of that political riff-raff but honestly I'm too upset about the results and this would be ten times harder for your eyes to bear.

2010-10-17T23:44:00.002-04:00

Honestly?
Im never going to expect anything more than what people give me.
If thats the only shit they give me.

- I say far too much. I hardly ever speak
Tell me where does the plot twist?
When will you find yourself?

Are YOU listening?
No one ever says enough, Im so tired of people who end in permanence.
Its fucking obnoxious.
okay! Okay!-Ill cut you some slack.

Your only human... I can wait...

Some Of Us Made It.

2010-10-14T15:45:00.001-04:00

Divine Glances and Fleeting Gleams.

2010-10-12T20:04:00.000-04:00

Maybe I destroyed myself. Maybe it was negativity being poured into the clear cup of water that used to be my innocent youth. But I am changed and a lot of people feel some ways about it. What does that mean? Should I move away from those people because in essence, if I'm not doing something that benefits them and they don't like what I'm doing, what's the point of the relationship existing? Is it the, "best friends, worst enemy" type of thing? I think a lot of people have that phrase twisted if it is. Why am I even talking about this, judging by what I have observed everyone I know can drop someone at a dime and replace them at will. The life of a creator. However, what's being created? Besides technology, which is going to destroy us, what else can you really say is really popping off and getting people's attention? I'll tell you this, SHOUT OUT TO DJ J-INTERNATIONAL-NASTY AKA @JNastyCV for going in on the radio during his Monday Night Raw show on WRIU 90.3. It's on late night Mondays if you're hip to the happs. I'm using a Mac right now so I can't upload any pictures without going through mad steps so I'll have some good stuff next time I just needed a quick rant. I would love a safe for the simple fact that it's going to be my back-up plan in any sticky situation. I need to go back to a strict life regiment because I haven't put out any spectacular pieces or anything of the sort, but trust, I have been improving my craft. I was on the bus today and since Castro died I pulled out a book, a female began talking about a book she had to finish when the dude with her shut her down to talk about how he's going to get a car with tints. He goes on to talk about the licks he catches and how he has the strap and the gauge. He told the bus his whole life story like he had something to prove to all of us, it was really quite sad. All I know is if something would have jumped off I was well equipped. I don't play that BS. Do you have a Tumblr? Check out http://junebugsdead.tumblr.com

“transition to adulthood”

2010-10-12T01:21:00.000-04:00

I have no idea what that phrase means. Or, what it solidifies. The New York Times posted an article sometime during August about the problem (?) with 20-somethings. I clicked on the article thinking it would be enlightening. Truth be told I didn't make it 3/4 of the way down the first page and I don't think I'll ever finish. I don't want to. I don't want to waste my time. Upon "reading" the article it did strike me that, I am a 20 year old and no where near traditional. But that's the point. Why do these statistic freaks think we're going to fall into the pattern of time. We've all seen our parents work 9 to 5's. Doing something they're 20-something self would never think of doing. Settling.

Settling into a state where they're so tired from working all the time. That they wouldn't dare protest or question anything. Working at a job where they get know say. Do as your told.

Have you ever asked an elder what they're dream in life was?

Do it, it may be the saddest story you'll ever hear.

But, it might be the only motivation you'll ever need.

The biggest excitement in your life is brought to you by your television set or constant status changes.

Living vicariously through someone else's life.

I don't know what's going on.

But, I do know that I can't settle.

I never have.

That kind of shit is for robots.

We're all too creative for all that anyway.

Sitting, watching, waiting.

A change is well on it's way.

Lead by artists of all kinds.

Writers of sorts.

Those damn rebel kids.

It's simple.

If you don't want an ordinary future.

Don't live ordinarily.

history isn't made by the mundane

Money Isn't The Motivation.

2010-10-07T16:26:00.000-04:00

Put some extra Mozzarella on the motherfuckin' shit.

I don't think we're going to see any timeless movies until we make some.

Why must having your own opinion these days be so rare?

I'm not thrity years old so that's not a sentiment I can't cosign.

"Man, I'm high, remember?"

Maybe I'm just like my mother, she's never satisfied.

It's turned into people just observing one another, no one really wants to chill.

The mumbling and such they try to conceal is very clear to me.

I'm a listener before anything.

I'm not going to miss you because you're part of who I am.

I will always see you when I look in the mirror!

Can a nigga get a table dance?

The world has to change. We're amazing.

2010-10-03T15:10:00.054-04:00

(taken with a disposible camera.)

(taken with a film camera.)

<a href="http://diznmoon.com/track/city-lights">City Lights by Diz Gibran</a>

Here's an update: I still don't know what the fuck to do with my life.

Large Apple

2010-09-24T18:17:00.002-04:00

Im in the big city for the Weekend - New York.

Cheers!

Nessly get well

She Will Leave When She Wants To.

2010-09-23T16:06:00.000-04:00

There are times when I don't want to speak.

There are times where I don't feel like being a warrior anymore.

But I'm slowly starting to realise that life isn't always about what you feel like doing.

I have to wear the mask but I should be glad that I'm one of the mask wearers.

Body Snatcher(s)

2010-09-23T04:11:00.005-04:00

Its been a while since ive tried - Forgive me . This wont happen again.

Im sorry im so swift to dissapear.

I smoke cigarettes. - Thick Clouds.

I think about fashion alot , Such bizarre things go through my mind in the dark.

Meditate!

"I follow the Great Buddah, though I acknowledge that all Gods are the same."
I miss people no matter what.

Im finally believing I deserve what im receiving in life.

I dont believe in destiny.

- Hopelessly Romantic
Eastern Philosophy(s) > Western Philosophy(s)

GoodMorning .
- Goodnight Spring.

Do It Yourself

2010-09-15T20:54:00.002-04:00

"In fact, if Christ himself stood in my way,

I, like Nietzsche, would not hesitate to squish him like a worm."

Fucked Up "First Born”

Genghis Tron “Ergot (Relief)”

Deadmau5 feat. Kaskade “I Remember (Caspa Remix)”

Toro Y Moi “Imprint After”

Nujabes “The Final View”

French Montana & Max B “Goon Muzik (We Run NY) feat. Dame Grease”

Gang Starr feat. Total “Discipline”

King Geedorah “Fazers”

“I pray to God that I live to see what Lezlie Harris will become.”

You can’t fail.

Where Is My Mountain?

2010-09-15T15:10:00.005-04:00

So, I was hoping to have some good news for you guys after the hiatus but it's been one disappointment after another. I think I may have to take some of Nietzsche's advice and go back to the drawing board. The real drawing board. What if some people really are too gone to be awaken from the American Nightmare? I digress. At least Castro isn't suffering from memory loss and I still have my music, to an extent. I've been reading though so I will have all types of big words and such for you to look up. I'm hoping blogging more will increase my typing speed so I can know how many WPM I type at. I feel like I have so much to say but I'm drawing a blank right now.

I voted. the sad part is, the people on the news KNEW there was going to be a low voter turn-out and did nothing to help but say "there's going to be a low voter turn -out." The polls closed at nine, I don't know how they let that happen. Congrats to the winners and better luck next time to the losers. No I'm not telling you who I voted for. All I know is these people in office are going to get an ear and eye full of things that need to change. The people are going to be in control this time.

I'm about to embark on a mission like no other. It's going to be a little to the left and hopefully in the end a bit uplifting to those who share similar goals and struggles. I now know that there will be some parts of this mission that are going to be kept under the radar, but if things do get out and my actions seem unjust think of this; who are you to say what is unjust and what isn't? Sorry for the rant but there are times where you have to take into account whose blog this is! I think you should make one too for the simple fact that you might enjoy this one.

There will always be Hope.

2010-09-10T11:53:00.003-04:00

Deception.

Ive been meditating so much lately.

- Forgive me if im wrong,

When will we evolve into honest living.

Im not in love anymore, Not with the wind nor a girl.

My pockets are empty. My hands are overflowing.

I must here you,

"Do not let your hatred of a people incite you to agression"- The Quran 5:2

We attempted to burn these; How broken have we become.

Just Be patient.

Simply Breathe.

Who Cares We Just Want More.

2010-09-06T02:22:00.005-04:00

One thing is for sure, it's time to get rid of the cloud being throw in front of us. It's everything from the petty arguments you have over nothing and turning off the light when you leave the room up to getting drugs out of our schools and promoting better habits for the youth. Everyone is different but we must share one common goal or at least opinion. Toy Story 3 was pretty good. Taking small steps, on my way to becoming king of the jungle. That old school feel, that feeling of love and all of that good stuff is about to come back. I don't like movies with an obvious hero and Villain, it makes it too easy to choose sides and easier to generalize things into good or bad. Two words I have learned to stay clear of recently. Maybe I should go up into the mountains for ten years, talk about reflection time. When was the last time you got to sit back and really reflect on things? Causes, effects, wealth, power, seduction, success the list goes on but what does that stuff mean to you? How heavily do you live your life based on words of that nature? "Bag Lady" by Erykah Badu always catches me slipping. It really isn't worth going back after you have seen what real options you have in order to live a life suitable for you. Everyone has their day to day pleasures but those times are done for, many people don't even have their health. I'm voting and I think you should too. Hit me up if you need info on who's running for what. After this whole job thing works out for the best some great changes will be made as well as a chance to update my wardrobe. It's time to do more damage with this camera, almost done with the basics though. I have to find a new music device, Castro is doomed and instead of buying a laptop, what's good with tablet PC's? I just peeped one and it doesn't seem like a bad look. A leader takes things in his or her own direction because it is what they know will bring rapid change and progress where it is needed. I'm learning though.

Dipset Rule To Live By

2010-08-31T21:55:00.000-04:00

“If a bitch ain’t got a plan,

I ain’t fuckin’ with it.”

Categories.

2010-08-31T15:58:00.005-04:00

Just when you thought it was safe I came back.
After a conversation with my lady and my brother I found this out:
In terms of the masses, we're screwed.
This is because of the perception the people in power have of us.
If we're easily entertained they're going to use that to cover everything else.
Look at the television.
Browse through 100 of the 347891658349 channels there are.
What percentage of that stuff really matters?
Look at your timelines for the 5437953482 websites that have all of your info.
How many of those people are actually worried about you when you're gone?
I have over three different personalities.
Or, I could just be losing it mentally and it's a coping mechanism to think I do.
I have a word for some select people in society.
If you're dealing drugs, whatever they may be you need to be consistent.
Not only that but you should get quality stuff and don't try to short change people.
This can end in you either getting robbed or having weight you can't sell.
Which will lead to you getting robbed.
"Drug dealing is fun!"
This is what our city is reduced to in these economic times.
"He wants a fifteen I'm going to give him a ten."
This can get you beat the fuck up.
"What's Trainwreck, I'm about to call my shit Trainwreck."
This is what lack of hard work and creativity looks like.
All of those quotes came from one conversation mind you.
Imagine what other people like that are thinking.
I'll tell you what they're thinking.
They're thinking they can get away with dumb shit over a dollar.
They have the game all backwards and it's costing people time, money and even their lives.
That's not even the worst part.
I'll explain later, there are too many words in this post.
BTW PC>Mac.

Admiration is the furthest from Comprehension

2010-08-30T01:23:00.002-04:00

As odd as it may seem, It's tough.

Constantly reminding myself that I'm not everyone else.

Their material possessions and their popularity. Their ideas and happiness. Their progression.

It's even harder stopping myself from emulating any of the previously stated.

(this shouldn’t be an issue)

there I am, a fly on the wall

It’s never my intention to offend anyone.

I just hope you understand.

hold on, let him explain..

You’re Welcome, Joe.

They don’t fit yet.

A police vehicle parked on Broad St. during the Dominican Festival. I took a peak inside.

morning bike rides do the body good.

She’s a Red Bone.

what’s good, Em?

looks good..

tastes better.. lol jk

∞

2010-08-29T22:07:00.002-04:00

Its almost never enough.

- Those of me miss you all-

Be in contact soon.

-Wspahk

Take A Stand.

2010-08-28T02:04:00.003-04:00

I feel like Jules when he got shot at and not one of the bullets touched him. There have been so many instances in my life where I have felt like I had to do what was accepted or what was in the best interest of others in order to live a good life. Not to say that I don't want to see those around me flourishing, I was just brought up in a society where what was in plain sight was right and going with the flow was the way to go. I was wrong, the fact is, those people I sought to please weren't on the same wavelength as me. They had their own agenda and were using me as well as countless others in an attempt to boost their chances of, "making it" in this cruel and cold world. It started off with very small things, but as I tried and tried to keep up with what was going on I came across ten times as many problems. That's when I realised all of that stuff wasn't for me, and as hard as it was to stop falling into the norm, I came to the conclusion that there was no other choice to just let mad stuff go. I have learned to find out what is best for me as well as those close to me in order to push away any other distractions. These are grave times and action is going to get way more results than talking.

"Truth is you're the weak and I'm the Tyranny, but I'm trying Ringo, I'm trying real hard to be the Shepard. "

I feel like, if you are about the things you say your whole life, others who respect that will start to show that same trait, regardless of how they feel about your stance on certain subjects and situations. Hopefully, with that, and a lot of improvement in establishments across the country be they government or otherwise, we can move toward a better world where the common goal is to have that peace of mind and know that you're going to be alright.

As always if you see any errors in what I have written, grammatical or otherwise, please let me know! All help is appreciated.